so for the past 45 minutes i've been dancing around the empty apartment i'm living in for the next week, mind you, i've been here since July, but i've had two room mates the rest of the time, and said room mates are out of town right now, visiting their respective home towns, i will go home at the end of this week, for a week, as soon as my finals are over


anyways, back to the dancing, its been lots of fun, wild and crazy, mostly because no one can see and also because i have too much energy and had to burn it off somehow, i'm also trying my best not to psych myself out, which tends to happen when i'm alone, hence the dance mix, filled with lots of upbeat music, that's playing as i write this,


have you ever really noticed how you act when you're alone? i notice i have random spurts of dancing (not including the times of excess energy) and i make the most random noises, mostly squeals, tiny screams, or other weird crazy sounds, i think its because i'm normally such a quiet person (unless you're alone with me, then i'm a talker) but in groups especially, i'm generally quiet, merely observing

i've also noticed i don't think in the same format as i do when i'm around people, hard to explain, but definitely different, maybe you do too?



the fall semester starts for me in two weeks, i'll be a junior, it promises to be an interesting semester, so far the second half of the year has most decidedly been better than the first half, but alas, will it last?



i'm so weird sometimes, then again, who isn't?




i've also been thinking about change a lot lately, and the future, which is always a dangerous thing, but a girl can dream right? sometimes i want to freeze time, just to keep the present, so i don't have to face the bad that tomorrow could very well likely bring, but i also know that tomorrow can bring something completely wonderful too, and i'm so impatient for the completely wonderful, that i wouldn't freeze time, even if i could



my favorite thought for the present is: don't stay content forever, but do have moments of just being content


this definitely seems to describe my life at the present



anyways, i think that's enough for a 1am rambling such as this, i hope you are having a fabulous time, sleeping, dreaming, loving, living, or whatever you call what you're doing



good night '.'

sooooooooooo

I'm back in San Antonio, been here since last Thursday, its been really good for the most part, I had my first day of class, I'm taking American Lit to get it out of the way, and my impression of my teacher so far is not very good, i feel like i'm going to be driven insane in this class, so thats the only downfall for being back


on a better note, tomorrow i turn 20 yay! lol i'm so glad i don't have to tell people i'm 19 anymore and receive shocked expressions because i seem older to them, 20 seems a little more fitting (although to some i should be 25, but whatever lol)

all the same though i've already had two birthday celebrations and have two more coming, on the wednesday before i had to leave, my family gave me a little party with a few family friends and my best friend called two more of my good friends over while i baked cookies that night, i had such a great time with them,

yesterday one of my San Antonio friends took me to dinner and a movie, we saw public enemies, it was a good movie but kinda long, anyways for my actual birthday tomorrow, 4 of my closest friends here are taking me out, i don't know where, cause its a surprise, but i like it that way ^,^ there's only one missing, but i got to see her Sunday morning for breakfast for a few hours and that was good, also this weekend another friend is giving me a party, all this partying makes me feel so loved lol


have i mentioned how hot i am, and i don't mean muoy caliente, i mean holy fuck will this texas heat never rest, the heat index has been over 100 degrees since may, and no rain i've taken more cold showers than i care to count just to cool off, *rawr*


anyways i hope you are all doing well, life is weird and may thrown you for a loop but why stay in a complacent stupor all the time right?